Published Mon Apr 15, 2019 09:51 PM PDT
(Authored Palm Sunday 2019)
I am interested only in living as a Christian. I have no attachment to conservatism, or to liberalism. Call me a moderate if you like.
If the Christian faith bothers you, that’s fine; we don’t have to associate. If it’s secondary to you, that is also fine; I just won’t agree.
I have tried the other ideologies. They all feel vulgar by comparison. I no longer desire to think in those ways, anymore than I desire to eat something unpleasant. I’ve tried it, and it wasn’t good. That’s all there is to it.
I’m at the point where I see all deviation as simple pride, a vice I must maintain constant vigilance against. There’s nothing more to be “open minded” about, no more alternatives to consider. I will do my best to be obedient and am content for that to be the remainder of my earthly existence.
I am not a traditionalist, nor am I a modernist. I am a middle-of-the-road, everyday Catholic. I do not advance any heretical ideas. I am not a universalist. I do not make things more strict than they need to be. I practice the religion fully and that is it. That is the totality of my philosophy.
I want my mind to calcify completely around this. I don’t want any doubt or temptation of any kind to seep in. I want it to be final, done with, concluded. That is where I’m at.
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